Reconciliation

J called me up in hysterics after reading my entry on his recent demise in my world.

He was sobbing so hard I could barely make out what he was trying to say.

I calmed him down and it was after that I heard him choked 'Please. Don't do this to me. If you go ahead with this, I will be ruined.'

I tried to console and comfort. Most importantly, I tried to make him see sense.

'No you do not understand. You can't do this.' he insisted.

I stood firm and told him that I have to do this for myself.

There was an awkward silence. He could be heard sobbing softly.

'I am finished' he muttered softly.

I told him 'I am sorry. So sorry J'.

I never knew I meant so much to him. When a guy would shed tears for you, you must mean something.

I couldn't bear to hear him sniffle. I was about to cave. Maybe he deserves another chance. Afterall, cutting him completely off is a tad drastic. Besides, he was a good friend.

'J......come on' I softly encouraged.

'No. You don't understand' he snapped. And then he continued 'You cannot do this to me. I've already bought the ticket to Singapore and it's peak period so this would mean I busted 600 odd pounds for nothing.'

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THAT, was awkward!

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The above DID NOT happen. I made it up.

What really happened was that J did call and we've decided that I shouldn't and wouldn't cut him off totally. Starting the new year with a soft heart is so not the smart thing.

But he knows too much about me. If we stop talking and I stop knowing what is going on, I might have to kill him.

What's a girl to do eh?

And he did get me something I really wanted for X'mas. Plus another mystery gift that somehow nobody knows what or where it is (cept for J of course).

So maybe I should try to be less drastic? Least I could do no?

But hell, it's my decision so there is no need for justifications.