An end to everything past and to 2005.

It's New Year Eve.

This must be one of the worst preludes to a new year ever. My mood is sombre and my heart is broken.

I've decided on alot of things for the new year.

For one, I've decided to go for a social detox and sweep all the nasty people out of my life.

I have to be more selective than I already am in the coming year.

'I' am going to feature more in the new year and people's feelings are going to get hurt. I am no longer going to have time for anyone or their bullshit.

One person I've sadly decided to put to rest in my world is J.

We've come a long long way and with every broken relationship, it's gonna hurt. But it's us or me.

And it's gonna be ME.

I can't spend the rest of my life feeling miserable. I cannot be with anyone who brings out the worst in me. I need to be more positive this year if I'm to survive longer than I intend.

I'm so sorry J, but our journey ends at the stroke of midnight.

It's indeed a sad end to a wonderful year but we've got to be strong for better things to come.

Nobody would understand the decision I've made tonight nor could they ever fathom my pain. But if it takes living alone for the rest of my life to be happy, that is what I'm going to do.

For I sorely miss being happy J, and you of all people should know that.

Such is life when you love someone so much but just could never find a way to be happy together.

Cutting J off would mean cutting off a huge part of my life since he's the only one who knows my secrets, fears, dreams and life.

I'd never let anyone be that close to me again. It was such a scary and painful experience.

Sure was glad to know ya Li'l and I wish you only the best in life.

Happy New Year now.